Another legend falls
No, it won’t hurt forever
One day you’ll make them sad with your own changes
Give ‘em what they want and all they want is more
No matter what you say it all falls short
You asked me to be here so i’m here…but i had to get high
Just to stand by your side
Another young boy calls
A legend in the making
You put all your thoughts on the ones you can’t believe in
Give ‘em what they want and all they want is more
I guess it’s TOO hard to taste when i’m SOOO close and i’m so warm
You asked me to come over and bring you back to life
While i’m dying on the inside
So i’ll say what you wanna hear
But for me there are no promises here
I’m standing under the falls
Washing all but the secrets i can live with
I won’t wash them off – nor the kisses i dream you do give
Give ‘em what they want and all they want is more
Read between the lines and you’ll miss the point
You asked me to be here so i swallowed my pride
Now i’m Violet on the inside
We can all attempt to outrun our needs, but just like hunger or thirst, life without them will cause us to die. I feel withered and spent. I miss love.
“It’s everything it ought to be, it’s everything you need to be. It’s okay don’t stand in the way. You’ll only make it hard.”
Maybe love isn’t this hard. Maybe it is as natural occurring as every other substance and movement here on this earth. Are hurricanes hard to produce? Is atmosphere disobedient and proud? Is grass lustful? Everything else on this planet does what it is supposed to do, with no qualms. Do we make it harder than it needs to be? So why is this idea of real love so elusive to me?
This song, All Matter, suggests that, “you don’t even gotta try, all you gotta do is realize.” I have a life that is different. I don’t see people like me and don’t really look up to anyone. I am my own mentor, and have really always been. I don’t know many people who understand that way I am. Some see it as naivete. I see it as my love. And just because others don’t get it, it doesn’t mean that there is something wrong with me. And maybe, it doesn’t mean anything is wrong with them, maybe. I’m new to this, so bear with me.
Love is nature. It isn’t forced. We make it hard. If we just do what we are supposed to do, then it is realized, right? I don’t know….I’m thinking about this all day…none of this is chiseled in stone. Your comments are welcome….
The Afflictions I have witnessed has me on edge,
with a memory of a nightmare, a nightmare I blend,
in with realism though I’ve chizzled the dreams in which I web.
Where can I catch the falling hearts to help me make amends,
Learning forgiveness , holding on to the climate, til its ready to Reign.
The absent minded take the lead, driven blinded by what they don’t need,
Zealous query for themselves , endless worry on everyone else.
I see things different light towards the dark, culture creator I make it with my heart.
I cannot say that life is quiet and peaceful right now. But I feel peaceful. My job is still rocky. My friends and family are still struggling. I am awaiting something new and different all the time. But stress no longer keeps me up at night. I am serene and feel safe though things could easily freak me out.
I know some people would listen this and think that I must be under the spell of religion, and am being blinded by what reality really is. That is far from the truth. I pray throughout the day for others to feel the peace I do when situations are in turmoil. I can’t say I am in a time of movement right now. I am in a time of daily reflection, peace and foundation building. I thank God for the time to be able to weigh my options. I am not making any swift decisions. I am evaluating my actions and helping those who are in need.
This kind of peace is a process. Months ago, I remember reading Isaiah 40:29-31:
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
I’ve always thought, ‘yeah, that’s good for some people. But I have a life and needs that cannot wait.’ It is so easy for us to look at our problems with money, people, jobs and life and instantly try to fix it ourselves. Yes, sometimes God does want us to jump up from our laziness and make change in our lives. But sometimes He wants us to wait, grow patience and endure.
This world is fast-paced. Many people begin working in their teens and don’t ever stop until they pass out. Retirement in non existent for those that lack money. Success is defined by how hard you work, and how less you sleep. We are go-getters and we strive to make things happen for ourselves all the time. Today, I thank God for calm and quiet as I wait. Even though things continue to move and shake around me, I know that I remain serene, not by my own doing, but because of my relationship with God. Because I used to be the most nervous Nelly there was! But God has smoothed out my emotions (for the most part) and has given me a level and even attitude, when months ago I know I would have freaked out.
God ways are perfect; sometimes they are swift and immediate and sometimes they are slow and require faith. But loving Him makes waiting like an oasis. He hasn’t forgot about you, and patience will bless you in its own time.
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair
