I don’t know what God is up to, but I am thankful that He has me on his mind. I had been wondering if I was doing something to block my blessings. God has rapidly revamped me since the end of last year. I was on the road to becoming that golden woman who I wanted to be. But I was still broke.
Brokeness in an interesting position to be in. Because I never felt like I was lacking in anything. I was just treated by others like I had nothing. By grace I was covering my expenses, and having a little money afterwards for incidentals. But compared to what I used to have, I was broke. People treat you different when you don’t have money to blow, and I had never been in a situation like that before.
So to make a long story short, I got a new job this week. Don’t get me wrong, I am deeply excited. But I am also aware of people who don’t have jobs or may have wanted the job I got. So I didn’t want to brag. It is a dreamy job, I must say. It will allow me to write and travel. I will get to meet some of the most influential people across the country. And the people that work there are really excited about me. I have never worked anywhere where my presence is anticipated!
I have learned a lot from being broke. I understand why people lose hope and do thing to force their financial situation to change. I understand how it feel to go to the store with $20 and try to buy food for the next two weeks. Sometimes, not even the 10 for $10 sales were good enough!
Maybe God was preparing me to be a city on the hill at a time like this. Maybe this is just another test, and I know that I have a lot to prove to God so that I won’t fail. But I have been blessed so much in the past year and this blessing of employment is no better than the other ones I have. I see gas for the car as a blessing. I see tuna melts and tomato soup as a blessing. My parents have been a blessing. My friends who wanted to see me even though I couldn’t go splurging with them are a blessing. People who did little things just to lift my spirits, even when I didn’t even complain to them are a blessing.
My struggles are far from over, this is just one more hurdle I have jumped over. I’m sure many more are to come! I am glad that God is molding and stretching me, making me a person of purpose and trusting me with such awesome responsibilities!
