This past year has been a rollercoaster. I quit my corporate job in communications to start my own business. I didn’t know why I needed to get away, I just knew I needed to get away. I wasn’t happy everyday. But the freedom of owning my own business didn’t provide me with the happiness I was looking for. Sure, I have always been filled with potential. I always have had people tell me that there was something about me that made me different from other people. But that difference never translated into any real money, so I thought folks were just gassing me up.
A few weeks ago, I wasn’t particularly down, but I was definitely out of options. I had just got looked over for another job that I thought I was perfect for. I was out of money, and had been skimping on necessities for months. I was watching Lift Every Voice on BET, and a singer was talking about how God had chosen her to be where she was today. As she told her story, I lifted my head and talked candidly to God. I said:
“I know I say to You all the time, ‘Let Your will be done, not mine.’ But today I really mean it. I’m down for whatever at this point God. Just let me know whatever it is You want me to do.”
I heard God speak to me right then and there. He said:
“Start a blog and call it Chosen. Tell people about your unique walk with Me.”
“That’s all well and good,” I told God. “But I’m not perfect. I go to church, but I still kick it. I have a drink every now and then. And I can quote only a few scriptures.”
“When you start this blog it will bless you and those around you,” is all God responded.
For two weeks I came up with every excuse and used every obstacle to justify why I shouldn’t start this blog. What if people judge me? What if people expect me to be more than what I can do. I’m no bishop or preacher. Just a girl who loves God and is now trying to use the Word instead of my own understanding to get through life.
So as of right now, I am answering the call. Matthew 22:14 says, “For many are called, but few are chosen.”
I refuse to left out of anything else God has for me. Thank you in advance for joining me on my journey.
THANK YOU, for keeping in real!! For those of us who walk with god surely struggle everyday of not being perfect. Our past seems so passé when we look forward as we chose to walk with our father. The one that picks us up, loves us for us (not matter what) and pushes us to be his best which becomes our best. You go girl, I am very excited to see this blossom.
Ezekiel 37 :1-14 My store, my testimony..
-be blessed,
I’m just starting to read the blog and you are definitely a blessing already. You write what I think or experience. LOVE IT. I’m passing this along!
Yes, as am I …adding you to my blogroll.
Great anointing over you and this place…
I’m logging this into my personal memory, the tiny hard-drive in my head, as ( Bethel-Blog)
God Bless you…
I’m glad I found your blog. I’m in a similar place… seeking, acknowledging God as creator and his Son as the only path to salvation. My mother, the strongest person I knew in Christ and could have answered lots of questions is no longer with me. I miss her terribly but am comforted in the certain knowledge of resurrection. I understand what she really meant by “loneliness” now. But there’s no way to go but forward
thank you for heeding God’s call. i am blessed already so in my feast of blogs you go
Wow!..I told your aunt I would look up you and your sisters blog and I am amazed at what I just read..you keep doing what you are doing and God will bless you…Tell Aunt E. I said hello.
Excellent blog. Keep up the very good work.
I stumbled upon your blog via googling something like “pros and cons of quitting facebook” .
I haven’t read much, but already your words have touched me. If there is anything I like about a person, it is willingness to be vulnerable before another person. True honesty requires vulnerability. True vulnerability requires an abandonment of pride and an embracing of humility. I hope to read more of your story.
Thank you for listening to God’s voice.